I just threw away my childhood.*

*originally from LJ

My dad made me clean out the bookshelf where I've been keeping my various folders and old books, etc.. I had to fit it all in a box, which means there was a lot of throwing out to do. It's really hard throwing away something with an A+ or 101% on it. It is! I threw away the above-average child and now I'm left with a mediocre pseudo-adult. This sucks! I want to be a kid again!

I know I'll have no use for my Hamlet notes ever again; and I know a lot more about Mendelian inheritance than I did 4 years ago... but a part of me keeps thinking that maybe, in some weird way, I will need these things again. I was hoping my brother can use some of my school stuff, but that's obviously not happening. Maybe my kids??

So now the last 20 years of my life have been reduced to a 1ft x 2 ft x 1 ft DELL box my laptop came in. I managed to save some of my more interesting essays and reports (like my family tree thing with copies of pictures of my great-great grandparents - which I lost immediately after making the copies - sorry grandma!). I also decided to keep my Barron's AP Gorvenment book. Who knows, maybe one day I'll need to quickly brush up on my US government for some snotty party or something.

On another note, my house is a death trap for my stuff! I inevitably lose something every time I bring it home. Right now I can't find my DUNE video tape. "We didn't touch it." No Shit! It just walked off by itself. I haven't seen those tapes since August. It took me 30 mins to find my big Sad Sam dog. It's a pretty damn big dog, yet they managed to hide it anyways. I left it under the stairs in August, but it wasn't there. Then my dad said he moved it to my grandma's room, but there was nothing of mine there. In that case it MUST be in my room right? NO! It was in my parents' room! Besides misplacing my stuff, I hate doing laundry at home because half of it always ends up in everyone else's drawers. My brother gets pretty much all my socks and tshirts. My mom can't tell our bras apart - I mean come on! I won't go in to how easy it is to tell those apart but one key feature would be the underwire. And I don't even want to know who takes my underwear! Most people bring duffels of laundry back home, but I'd rather stay dirty and wait to bring it back to school and do it myself.

I want my Dune tapes!!!!!!!

Comments:

2/21/02 11:46 AM srlife "B)"
hey your house might be a death trap .. but damn i the couch is greate,
so is the bed.. well who's ever it is now heheh

packing 2*

*originally from LJ

The somewhat fun part of packing is trying stuff on to see how it looks to know if you should keep it or not.
...at least its been fun so far since I haven't run into anything I don't fit into anymore.

woohoo

2 more!!*

*originally from LJ

I'm desperately attempting to pack... but no matter how hard I try there is still too much stuff!!! Unfortunately I'm a total Hector. (see below) I just can't bring myself to throw anything out. I still have notes from my 4th grade biology class "the heart has __ valves" and eventhough I know a heck of a lot more than that now, I just can't bring myself to let it go.

Then of course there are clothes. Things I swear to never wear, that seem less hideous every time I come home, and eventually make their way into my regular rotation. So I don't throw anything out, and I buy more stuff... you do the math. Eventually I'm going to drown in my own stuff. I just hope someone finds me before my body starts to decompose.

Besides "packing" (throwing things into black garbage bags) I'm also putting together a personal website (again), ala Steve's digital photo album (which was MY idea anyways).

Moving on... I read this poem in like 4th grade and it stuck with me for reasons you will shortly understand. It applies to pretty much my whole family (myself and my father in particular.)

HECTOR THE COLLECTOR

by Shel Silverstein

Hector the Collector
Collected bits of string,
Collected dolls with broken heads
And rusty bells that would not ring.
Pieces out of picture puzzles,
Bent-up nails and ice-cream sticks,
Twists of wires, worn-out tires,
Paper bags and broken bricks.
Old chipped vases, half shoelaces,
Gatlin' guns that wouldn't shoot,
Leaky boats that wouldn't float
And stopped-up horns that wouldn't toot.
Butter knives that had no handles,
Copper keys that fit no locks,
Rings that were too small for fingers,
Dried-up leaves and patched-up socks.
Worn-out belts that had no buckles,
'Lectric trains that had no tracks,
Airplane models, broken bottles,
Three-legged chairs and cups with cracks.
Hector the Collector
Loved these things with all his soul?
Loved them more than shining diamonds,
Loved them more than glistenin' gold.
Hector called to all the people,
"Come and share my treasure trunk!"
And all the silly sightless people
Came and looked...and called it junk.

Comments:

2/21/02 11:48 AM srlife "B)"
the poem rox, and so would u after a few shots

updates*

*originally from LJ

I don't feel too coherent right now so I'll just give you the highlights...

I SUCK at bowling. I won't mention scores here. It's too embarrasing.

Dogs don't like me. Especially big dogs.

I like Meg Ryan, and Woolverine is growing on me. Although it could've just been the accent.

Cafeteria food can actually be edible, if it's made right, and if you pay more than $0.25.

I'm attempting to put up pics on a website, again. We'll see how far I take this particular attempt. Although Steve has finally come through on updating his online album. Woohoo!

I did a good thing today. I sorted coats for the homeless with NY Cares. Feels nice to be helpful.

I'll be back in Ithaca in less than a week! Woohoo??

The rest of you better start making posts!

Current music: (SmoothJazz.com - The world's best Smooth Jazz - live from Monterey, Calif.)

Comments:

2/21/02 11:49 AM srlife
u listen to smooth jazz!!! me listen to smooth jazz!!
oh oh page? link link me,i forgot the url.

rise and shine!*

*originally from LJ

Yes, it's 5 am and I'm still up. Why you ask? Last night was STEVE's premature birthday party, but that's alright cause it was a combo party for STEVE and Ros who's birthday was at midnight. Lots of fun was to be had. Pictures should be on STEVE's website soon. I hope.

Heard some good songs I need to download. Had raspberry vodka (very good). Got a lapdance (very very good). Saw a full moon :)

Current music: deoce - Titiyo - Come along dance mix

Comments:

1/07/02 12:07 PM vinesandthorns "!!"
ROFL lap dance and full moon!!!!!!!

1/09/02 12:13 AM xaphan1039 "lap dance and full moon?"
hmm....how did i manage to miss that!! damn, i always miss the good stuff! who's moon and who's lap? :-)

1/10/02 12:08 AM drone1218 (me) "RE: lap dance and full moon?"
my lap, someone else's moon

2/21/02 11:50 AM srlife ":)"
hmm i usually stay up till 5 am whether it be tv, food, my pian/guitar or girls.. wait girls should be first on the list

Happy 2002*

*originally from LJ

Apparently my life at home is even more borring than at school. I've really had nothing to write for a while so I figured it's time to catch up.

Winter break is going alright. I'm seeing some of the people I wanted to, while others are avoiding me like the plague. Then there are the people I haven't seen in a long time who said "we should get together" and as usual, we have not (I'm not talking to anyone in particular here, there are several such people). Sometimes things just don't work out I guess.

Happy New Year to everyone! Lets see.. resolutions. I plan to be a cool new Anna (of course I say that every year). I'm going to bitch less and enjoy life more. Be more open minded, carpe diem. I need to get my life in order. Figure out what I want: academically, professionally, romantically, socially, etc... I can't find happiness if I don't know what makes me happy, so it's time to do some soul-searching. Yeah right. But really, I'm sick of being so pessimistic and unhappy. I didn't like Ithaca, so I went to DC, but I didn't like DC, and now I have to go back to Ithaca. Needless to say I certainly don't like Staten Island. So where would I be happy?? I've let the last 2.5 years just pass me by. No more. The next 1.5 will be the best ever! These are my college years, damnit! I'm gonna have fun and make some memories. In 10 years I won't remember what classes I took much less the grades I got in them. So what will be left from these 4 years and more than $120,000 (besides loans)? I think I've made a friend or two I hope to keep in touch with, but other than that???

I'm starting to depress myself again when I should be happy. The grades for last semester came online last night. WOOHOO! Lets just say I did, VERY VERY well. Which is VERY VERY unlike me. I really must stop getting good grades or I might raise expectations, and we just can't have that. Not to worry though cause next semester I'm taking organic chemistry and 2 biology classes, that should straighten things out. No. Must be positive. The goal of college is to LEARN, good grades are just a result of effective learning. That's all. Must learn.

Part of my resolution is to become more confident in myself. I need to be less "uhm, eh... aah.." and more "this is what I want, do it or face the consequences!" My role model is Carrie on SATC. Very fab. That's who I want to be (minus a few dozen sex partners).

I think that's all for now. Only 2 short weeks left in this break. Must make the best of these as well.

Current music: Marc Anthony - I need to know

Comments:

2/21/02 11:52 AM srlife ";)"
ok i'm saving that post.. pure poetry.
and u were talking to me.. dammit i'm not that brain dead,
just stupid sometimes.. go figure