Happy 2002*

*originally from LJ

Apparently my life at home is even more borring than at school. I've really had nothing to write for a while so I figured it's time to catch up.

Winter break is going alright. I'm seeing some of the people I wanted to, while others are avoiding me like the plague. Then there are the people I haven't seen in a long time who said "we should get together" and as usual, we have not (I'm not talking to anyone in particular here, there are several such people). Sometimes things just don't work out I guess.

Happy New Year to everyone! Lets see.. resolutions. I plan to be a cool new Anna (of course I say that every year). I'm going to bitch less and enjoy life more. Be more open minded, carpe diem. I need to get my life in order. Figure out what I want: academically, professionally, romantically, socially, etc... I can't find happiness if I don't know what makes me happy, so it's time to do some soul-searching. Yeah right. But really, I'm sick of being so pessimistic and unhappy. I didn't like Ithaca, so I went to DC, but I didn't like DC, and now I have to go back to Ithaca. Needless to say I certainly don't like Staten Island. So where would I be happy?? I've let the last 2.5 years just pass me by. No more. The next 1.5 will be the best ever! These are my college years, damnit! I'm gonna have fun and make some memories. In 10 years I won't remember what classes I took much less the grades I got in them. So what will be left from these 4 years and more than $120,000 (besides loans)? I think I've made a friend or two I hope to keep in touch with, but other than that???

I'm starting to depress myself again when I should be happy. The grades for last semester came online last night. WOOHOO! Lets just say I did, VERY VERY well. Which is VERY VERY unlike me. I really must stop getting good grades or I might raise expectations, and we just can't have that. Not to worry though cause next semester I'm taking organic chemistry and 2 biology classes, that should straighten things out. No. Must be positive. The goal of college is to LEARN, good grades are just a result of effective learning. That's all. Must learn.

Part of my resolution is to become more confident in myself. I need to be less "uhm, eh... aah.." and more "this is what I want, do it or face the consequences!" My role model is Carrie on SATC. Very fab. That's who I want to be (minus a few dozen sex partners).

I think that's all for now. Only 2 short weeks left in this break. Must make the best of these as well.

Current music: Marc Anthony - I need to know

Comments:

2/21/02 11:52 AM srlife ";)"
ok i'm saving that post.. pure poetry.
and u were talking to me.. dammit i'm not that brain dead,
just stupid sometimes.. go figure