still :(

I feel like crying, but i can't bring myself to do it.

I just had almost an entire texas-size margharitta from BBQ, and i poured myself a glass of wine the minute i got home. i've been depressed and out-of-it all week. it's affecting my day-to-day work. i just don't care. i feel burned out even though i'm not really doing anything. i just want it all settled.