flip flop*

*originally from LJ

What should I do with my life? The floor is open for discussion.

One day I'm really excited about grad school. You get to contribute something novel to science. You become an expert in your specific area. Science is exciting, interesting, challenging... You get to meet interesting people who are at the top of their fields.

Another day, I don't want to go to grad school. What if I don't get in to any? And if I do, what if I just can't make it?? If getting a PhD was easy, everyone would have one. It's not easy to think of an independent project, design it, and work it out. What if I just have a total break down? It's a long haul... 4-7 years. Ouch. I want to have a life. I don't want to live in the lab.

Then again, I can only get a limited number of with my degree. I probably wouldn't get paid more than the graduate stipend. If I'm doing lab work, I might as well be doing some that is going towards my own degree.

I'm considering Teach for America... I think teaching science will be cool. But again, I don't know how good I am at teaching, especially kids from underpriviledged backgrounds. I'm a terrible public speaker. I'm sure teaching gets rough. It's not easy to get through to someone. What if they don't want to listen? What if they're disruptive??

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
that is all for now.

Comments:

12/06/01 1:43 PM vinesandthorns "....."
you have nothing to worry about. you'll excell in whatever path you choose to take.

12/06/01 1:48 PM drone1218 (me) "RE: ....."
what the hell kind of responce is that??

12/06/01 4:46 PM srlife "hang in there"
I look at you and see a roll model for me..